Sunday, November 27, 2011

Coping Mechanism

There was this time in my life when Chotpo went away. For training related to her job. To a place more than 8k miles away. I had to accept it, somehow. And remain happy in front of her, so as not to depress her further. The only coping mechanism I could come up with involved avoiding her completely. I talked the minimum I could, tried to only answer relevant bits of email - not open up much, when she called, I would be talking the least. She did wonder why. No doubt she was quite disappointed. But that was the only coping mechanism I knew.

I have seeeeeerious attachment issues. Sometimes, I'm convinced I need therapy for this.

The week was hectic, but came to a depressing end. It is said that one shouldn't expect things from people - and expect outcomes/appreciation only and only from Allah SWT.

It's so easier said than done.*blinks hard for the umpteenth time today*

The only soul on the planet who can distract me completely from my troubles, is bhanju. I keep wanting him over, and playing with him. Till I can't think. Till I don't have to wonder, and hope, and feel the ever-ready lump in my throat.

I can only pray this time passes soon, in my life. And I forget the stuff that's been happening. And that people of the world find in their hearts flexibility, and gunjaaish for other's opinions and values.

It's just one of those days when it's so hard to smile. The following makes it worse:

Yesterday's NATO's (some sources claim it was US) helicopter attack on our checkpost martyred 28 people including a major and captain. Life has so little value for our 'friends' and people whom we are a 'close ally' of. It is said in the Quran:

Al-Imran (The Family of Imran)

3:118 (Asad) "O YOU who have attained to faith! Do not take for your bosom-friends people who are not of your kind. [87] They spare no effort to corrupt you; they would love to see you in distress. [88] Vehement hatred has already come into the open from out of their mouths, but what their hearts conceal is yet worse. We have indeed made the signs [thereof] clear unto you, if you would but use your reason."

If only we used reason...


Mohammad Zafar said...

There is one more Aayah in Surah Bakarah "Walan Tarda Ankal yahoodu walannasaara hatta tattabia'millata hum"

Uni said...

@Mohammad Zafar
Yes. Exactly. That too. And it applies exactly to this situation. They are not pleased with us, even when the entire leadership has been doing tattabia'millata hum.


Jazakallah for dropping by!

Glow said...

many people have serious attachment issues!! :) yes life has no value or lives of Pakistanis have no value!

we r there to serve a purpose if not we perish!

Uni said...

Yeah, I guess. Haven't seen many people with this level of attachment issues though :)

Definitely! :) Thanks for the insightful comment !

Anonymous said...

am happy to see that u used the word "martyr" for those who were shot by freekin NATO.

Rest, i reserve my comments.. maybe some other day. :)