I have seeeeeerious attachment issues. Sometimes, I'm convinced I need therapy for this.
The week was hectic, but came to a depressing end. It is said that one shouldn't expect things from people - and expect outcomes/appreciation only and only from Allah SWT.
It's so easier said than done.*blinks hard for the umpteenth time today*
The only soul on the planet who can distract me completely from my troubles, is bhanju. I keep wanting him over, and playing with him. Till I can't think. Till I don't have to wonder, and hope, and feel the ever-ready lump in my throat.
I can only pray this time passes soon, in my life. And I forget the stuff that's been happening. And that people of the world find in their hearts flexibility, and gunjaaish for other's opinions and values.
It's just one of those days when it's so hard to smile. The following makes it worse:
Yesterday's NATO's (some sources claim it was US) helicopter attack on our checkpost martyred 28 people including a major and captain. Life has so little value for our 'friends' and people whom we are a 'close ally' of. It is said in the Quran:
3:118 (Asad) "O YOU who have attained to faith! Do not take for your bosom-friends people who are not of your kind.  They spare no effort to corrupt you; they would love to see you in distress.  Vehement hatred has already come into the open from out of their mouths, but what their hearts conceal is yet worse. We have indeed made the signs [thereof] clear unto you, if you would but use your reason."
If only we used reason...