Monday, October 31, 2011

Of predictions...

I had predicted in July that by December, everything happening now will seem like an unreal dream. Boy, was I right.

My teacher had predicted after hearing my GRE score: Beta, you can get into any school of your choice. Boy, was he wrong.

Nobody knows
What lies ahead
One plans and hopes
But instead...

There might be pits
And falls here and there
Turns and twists
Despite the heavy care

Stare as we might
Watching events unfold
No difference can it make
We have to let things go

Try as we might
To change what we deem
Is not right - but
We have to let things be

We have to let things be.

Copyright Uni_Thoughtfully_Sadoony 2011

Friday, October 28, 2011

SIST 2011: Nouman Ali Khan's Message to Pakistan's Youth

An excellent talk by Nouman Ali Khan, to the youth in general, not just for the youth in Pakistan. I so hope we realize our responsibilities, our teenagers realize that life is not just about 'living it up' and 'living for the day' .. our parents get the insight and wisdom to teach their kids the true message of Islam, and we never feel ashamed/embarrassed of our deen, no matter what people do or say about it.

Really really inspiring, Alhamdulillah. DO watch.

Making the Most of The Blessed Days of Dhul-Hijjah

Allah’s sacred month of Dhu’l-Hijjah is upon us. It is a blessed and important month and one of the four sacred months in which the sin is more serious and good deeds bring a greater reward.

Here’s  a brief guide to help you to prepare for the best days of the year.

1.      Read the Qur’an:
Plan to complete the recitation of the Qur’an within these 10 days. If you read three juz a day, it can be accomplished. It is not difficult. Ask Allah to make it easy for you.

2.      Increase in Nawafil Prayers:
You can increase in Nawafil prayers by praying:

a] Salât Dhuha: Also known as al-Awwâbeen, may be offered as 2, 4, 6 or 8 rak’ât, prayed after the sun has risen and before the time for Dhuhr approaches. [Muslim, 1238]

b] 4 rak’ât before ‘Asr – The Prophet [sall-Allâhu ‘alayhi wa sallam] said: “May Allâh have mercy on those who pray four rak’ât before ‘Asr prayer.” [At-Tirmidhî, 395 – classed as hasan by al-Albânî in Sahîh al-Jâmi 3493]

c] Tahhiyatul masjid: Greet the masjid with two rak’ât: “If any one of you enters a mosque, he should pray two rak’ât before sitting.” [Al-Bukhârî & Muslim]

d] Al Sunnan Al Rawatib: The Messenger of Allah sallallahu alaihe wassallam said, “A house will be built in Heaven for one who prays 12 Rak'aat in a day and evening as follows: 4 Rak'aat before and 2 after the Dhuhr Prayer, 2 after the Maghrib Prayer, 2 after the ‘Ishaa’ Prayer and 2 before the Fajr Prayer." Narrated by at-Tirmizi under No. 380.

e] Qiyâm al-Layl: With this prayer, we hope that Allâh will illuminate our graves; will bestow nûr on our faces; will cancel our bad deeds, bi-idhnillâh. Pray at least 2 rak’ât. If you are able to follow the Sunnah, then pray all 11 rak’ât [including witr].

3.          Makes lots of Dhikr:

 Do a lot of dhikr, especially in these days. “There are no days greater in the sight of Allâh…” [Ahmad, 7/224 ]
 So what did the Prophet [sall-Allâhu ‘alayhi wa sallam] tell us to do in these days? That, we need to make the dhikr of tahlîl, tahmîd & takbîr. [Tahlîl [“Lâ ilâha ill-Allâh”], Tahmîd [“Alhamdulillâh”] and Takbîr ["Allâhu Akbâr"]. Ahmad, 7/224

As soon as the announcement of Dhul-Hijjah is made, start your dhikr:
 “Allâhu Akbâr, Allâhu Akbâr, lâ ilâha ill-Allâh, Wallâhu Akbâr. Walilâhilhamd.”

For women, when you are in your homes, raise your voices. You will remind your children, husbands, brothers, etc. Make it like a habit so that you will find yourself doing dhikr automatically. While walking, reclining, working, eating, just keep doing dhikr.
 Send a lot of blessings and salâm upon the Prophet sallallahu alaihe wassallam consistently.

4.      Istighfâr:
Is it possible to gain 1.5 billion hasanât in one minute?  How many Muslim’s are there today? 1.5 billion? By making istighfâr [seeking forgiveness] for all Muslim’s, you can gain 1.5 billion hasanat. The Prophet sallallahu alaihe wassallam is reported to have said that when a person seeks forgiveness for all believers, Allâh will write for him a hasanât for every one of those believers. [Classed as hasan by al Albânî ]

Just say ‘Astaghfirullâh’ for yourself and for all the believers, from your heart. Allâh [subhâna wa ta’âlâ] is forgiving & generous.
 Indeed, rahamât are falling down like rain. So try to be under those rahamât. Keep saying ‘astaghfirullâh’, ‘astaghfirullâh’, astaghfirullâh’, keep insisting on it till Allâh forgives you. Start from the beginning of Dhul-Hijjah.

5.      Fasting:
 Fast as much as you can during these blessed days. If you can fast all of these days, then do so. The Prophet sallallahu alaihe wassallam said, “There is no deed more precious in the sight of Allâh, or greater in reward, than a good deed done during the ten days of Dhul-Hijjah.” Allâh loves the good deeds in these days. Allâh loves siyâm. Put these two beloved things together. You are the doer of the things Allâh loves. He [subhâna wa ta’âlâ] will Love you, bi-idhnillâh.

Regarding fasting on the day of ‘Arâfah, the Prophet [sall-Allâhu ‘alayhi wa sallam] said: “Fasting the day of ‘Arafâh, I hope, will expiate the sins of the year before it and the year to come…” [Muslim, 1976]. So how does this happen? Does this mean that we can fast on that day and for the rest of the year we can do whatever we want of bad deeds? No! It implies that Allâh [subhâna wa ta’âlâ] will help us to abstain from sins. And, if you commit a sin by mistake, He [subhâna wa ta’âlâ] will cancel it due to His promise.

6.      Charity:  Spending for the sake of Allâh!
 Only Allâh knows how many trials & calamities have been pushed away from us, our family and loved ones as a result of our sadaqâh. Allâh knows how many times relief and ease has come to us due to the sadaqâh we gave. Therefore, give in the way of Allâh, as much as you can. Don’t leave any raised hands return empty. Show Allâh that you love Him by spending from that which you love. Show Allâh [subhâna wa ta’âlâ] that all these things mean nothing besides gaining His ridha [pleasure].

 Don’t look and remind yourself of what you have already spent in the past. If Allâh wills, He [subhâna wa ta’âlâ] has accepted and written it for you. Now, think of how you can outdo that sadaqâh during these days. Spend from what you love and Allâh will love you.

7.      Preserve the Ties of Kinship:
 Preserve the ties of kinship for: “No one who severs the ties of kinship will enter Paradise.” [Sahîh Muslim]
 If it is difficult for you to call or meet every relative, then send them a message. But write with your heart and with the right intention.

8.      Make the du’â:
“O Allâh, help me to remember You, to give You thanks, and to perform Your worship in the best manner.” [Sahîh Abû Dâwûd, 1/284]

These were just a few of the wonderful things we can do during these best days of Dhul-Hijjah. Therefore, if we want Allâh’s help with these deeds and our schedule for them, we need to do a lot of tawbah. The Salaf as-Sâlih used to say that they would feel prevented from qiyâm al-layl due to their sins. They knew that when they want to do ‘ibâdah and they are unable to do it, it is due sins. So, what do we need to do? A lot of istighfâr with tawbah, real Tawbah! Ask Allâh for help.

 Remember that in these special days and nights, Allâh is sending His special mercy. Do you think that this special mercy will reach everybody? Do you think that it will reach the one who is in front of the TV watching a movie? Or listening to music? Or do you think it will reach the one who is making sujûd, rukû’, tilâwah, making istighfâr, etc.?

We have to show Allâh that we want this special mercy. We need to make ourselves eligible for it.

Wishing you the best
Zakia Usmani

[inspired by a lecture by Shaykh Muhammad Hassan Yaqub from].

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Wednesday, October 26, 2011

First Ten Days of Dhul-Hijjah by Sheikh Yasir Qadhi.

No parent should have to bury their child

A horrifying account (among many) of how a father bore his son's death in Guantanamo Bay, Cuba - alleged suicide. There are many stories like these. One can't help feeling despair and extreme sadness at these accounts. And those who still defend the imperialism - well, they have to have no hearts, maybe.

“No parent should have to bury their child.” That was the first thought that crossed my mind when I met Talal al-Zaharani - father of one of the young men who died in Guantanamo in 2006 - last week in Oslo at the screening of the film Death in Guantanamo by Norwegian filmmaker Erling Borgen.

I first spoke to Talal in 2006 after it was reported that his son Yasser, just 17-years old when he was taken into US custody in Afghanistan and then onto to Guantanamo, had allegedly committed suicide along with two other prisoners. In response to my words of condolence I still remember Talal’s reply:

“May Allah reward you with the best for your words of kindness my dear brother, but I am not unhappy nor do I need condolences. My son and his companions were the victims of abuse and they died for their beliefs. Therefore they are martyrs and are in Paradise in sha Allah.”

How does one respond to these words, I thought?

Until meeting him I didn’t know the details of what Talal, as a father, had had to endure upon the return of his son’s body from Guantanamo.

Talal al-Zahrani is a kindly, pious and warm individual from the city of Madinah who spent the best part of the last three decades as a colonel in the Saudi police force, responsible for regions including the holy city of Makkah. When we met him, in the typical tradition of Arabian hospitality he brought bags of gifts for us all: Britons, Americans, Norwegians, Sudanese – Muslims and non-Muslims. He is not a vengeful man, quite the opposite in fact, but he does want justice for what America did to his son and he holds former US Defence Secretary Donald Rumsfeld personally responsible. To that end he has issued legal proceeding in the US courts against Rumsfeld for the false imprisonment, torture and death of his son.

Meeting Talal would have been enough of a reason to attend the film-screening but those present included notable human rights figures like Michael Ratner, President of the US Center for Constitutional Rights who spoke about representing Guantanamo prisoners at a time when hardly anyone would dare do so; Professor Mark Denbaux director of the Seton Hall Law School Center for Policy and Research who has been conducting vital research that has produced a counter-narrative to the official standard US version regarding US allegations against Guantanamo prisoners; Sami al-Hajj who spoke about his work post-release pertaining to the plight of the released prisoners in the Middle East and his role as head of Al Jazeera’s human rights branch and Walid Hajj, survivor of the Qala-i-Jangi massacre whose book in Arabic and series of ten hour-long interviews on Al-Jazeera describe the ordeal in vivid detail and made Walid into a household name in the Arabic-speaking world. Both he and Sami related the story of what they knew about Yasser al-Zahrani.

Like many Muslims from around the world Yasser had gone to help victims of the war in Afghanistan during the winter of 2001 before the US-led invasion. Shortly after that he ended up with a group of over 600 men who were handed over to the infamous Afghan warlord Abdul Rashid Dostum. Yasser’s worst ordeal however, was not in Guantanamo per se. Alongside US citizens Yasir Hamdi and John Walker Lindh Yasser al-Zaharani, aged sixteen at the time, and only 83 others, miraculously survived the notorious slaughter of over 500 unarmed prisoners, including many whose hands had been tied behind their backs, at the hands of American, British and Afghan Northern Alliance forces at Qala-i-Jangi in December 2001.

By the time Yasser got to Guantanamo’s Camp X-ray he’d already endured shrapnel and bullet wounds, starvation, torture, attempted electrocution, drowning and being set on fire.

Despite all he’d gone through, from Guantanamo he wrote his family praising God and telling them that he was well and in good spirits in order, his father said, that they do not worry too much. That is why Talal describes his son in the film as a ‘batal’ (hero).

The film is interspersed with gripping eye-witness testimony from former Sudanese prisoners Walid Hajj and Sami al-Hajj; Omar Deghayes and legal representatives of Guantanamo prisoners.

Despite the official version of US that on June 10, 2006 Yasser al-Zahrani (Saudi Arabia), Mani al-Utaybi (Saudi Arabia) and Ali Abdullah Ahmed (Yemen) committed suicide as an act of “asymmetric warfare” waged against the USA and a "good PR move" it is testimony from soldiers present on the night of the deaths that is most disturbing – and damning for US authorities. Scott Horton who wrote for Harpers Magazine presents evidence in the film that cites Army Staff Sergeant Joseph Hickman’s testimony of what happened that night. Without going into detail of the case, that is available on the magazine website, the most resonant words for me came from this highly decorated US soldier of more than 17 years in service: “There were no suicides in Guantanamo that night.”

The films also shows an interview with a senior Swiss forensic pathologist who carried out an autopsy on Ali Abdullah Ahmed which throws doubt on the US version of events after experiencing the lack of cooperation from US authorities in helping to answer some key questions, such why pieces of Yasser's upper airways, including the larynx – key elements in an autopsy on a hanging victim – were all missing.

However, it was the father’s calm and lucid yet heartbreakingly sad testimony about how he saw his son for the last time that finally broke the dam. In describing his son’s battered and bruised body, with body parts visibly missing each person in the theatre audience, surely, could not help but feel this man’s loss. And, although Saudi Arabia is a key ally of the US in the war on terror - albeit with its own idiosyncrasies - it is clear from the video footage of the funeral prayer of the men that the thousands in attendance with their chants of “Allahu Akbar” will never forget what Guantanamo did to their sons.

At the end of the film there was pin-drop silence in the theatre followed by a rapturous standing ovation for the filmmakers, the former prisoners and Talal - the man around whom the film is centred. People came up to us, Talal in particular, visibly moved and openly crying. In all honesty I was almost unable to control my own emotions too knowing what this man seated next to me had endured.

Since the 2006 deaths there have been two more reported ‘suicides’ in Guantanamo that no one other than US officials believes. In total there have been nine deaths there, each of the causes of death determined by US military officials with no independent verification. Each death, each individual is a life that needs to be accounted for properly. Death in Guantanamo is a documentary film which tells more than the story of Guantanamo. It accounts for one of those lives.

Although this is a story from Saudi Arabia, Afghanistan and Cuba – places that many ordinary westerners know very little and care even less about what will touch most people though is the fact that this father will never see this son again in this life but his fight for justice and truth will continue despite the odds stacked against him. And that’s what makes the film so memorable.

Source: Cageprisoners

Monday, October 24, 2011

I miss

I miss 2008. And 2009.

I still had dreams, and lofty aspirations.

Muslims weren't this degraded throughout the world

Muslim leaders weren't this degraded throughout the world.

Our country hadn't been this looted from within the leadership.

There were still parks around the city. Illegal plots hadn't spread to this extent, covering up the ground that longed for fresh grass and children's running feet.

My friends hadn't gotten this busy.

We had just graduated, so the craze for interviews and career fairs was still hot. I wasn't this disillusioned.

I wasn't this afraid of death and answering Allah for my deeds.

Currency hadn't fallen to this extent.

I still believed I could avoid a postgrad in this country. If I work hard enough.

I still believed I could be.. something. In life.

I so wish there were some formula that could transform a human to be functionally independent of all other humans/beings. Except Allah.

So long!

Thursday, October 20, 2011

Hilarious way of making a point :D:D

Goes without saying that intellectual debates about the Holy Book are bound to produce no tangible results if the speaker isn't aware of the Book, can't pronounce the words, etc.

Excellent message, delivered in a really funny way :D

A Forward Email :D:D

Which made me go...

What an apt image.. :D. *marvels at it for a while*


Pakistani researchers have discovered the heaviest element yet known to science. The new element, so far only discovered and found in Pakistan , has been named Zardarium (Symbol = Zm). It has one Presitron, 1 Priministron, 77 Ministrons, 98 deputy Ministrons, 298 National Assemblions, and 100 Senatrons, giving it an atomic mass of 575.

These 575 particles are held together by forces called morons, which are surrounded by vast quantities of lepton-like particles called pillocks. Since Zardarium has no electrons, it is inert, impotent and ineffective. However, it can be detected because it impedes every reaction with which it comes into contact. A tiny amount of Zardarium can cause a reaction, that would normally take less than a second, to take from 4 days to 4 years to complete, depending upon the kick-back percentage that Zardarium can get. It is neither radioactive nor active and is largely inert except for its psychopathic attraction for corrupt morons, Ministrons, Assemblions and Senatrons. In this respect, another two important inert iso-dopes, Nawazium (Symbol = Nm) and Shahbazium (Symbol = Sm) play a vital role as catalysts by their moronic ineptitude.

Zardarium has a normal half-life of 2 to 5 years. It does not decay, but instead, the whole country undergoes a re-organisational decay in which a portion of the assistant neutrons and deputy neutrons exchange places. The most important chemical quality of Zardarium is its magnetic properties for gold, Dollars, and corrupt morons. In fact, Zardarium 's mass will actually increase over time, since each reorganisation will cause more morons to become Ministrons and forming iso-dopes as a by-product. This characteristic of moron promotion leads some scientists to believe that Zardarium is formed whenever morons reach a critical concentration. This hypothetical quantity is referred to as a critical morass. When catalysed with money, Zardarium becomes Presidentium (symbol = Pz), an element that radiates just as much energy as Zardarium, since it has half as many pillocks but twice as many morons. Pakistan ka ALLAH Hafiz
*lote pote with laughter*

Wednesday, October 19, 2011

Amazing story :)

5 minutes, 52 seconds.. :) Anybody can do that..

This story is beautiful. May Allah Make us this conscious of Him and this passionate about convincing our loved ones to do right and leave the wrong. Ameen.

Tuesday, October 18, 2011

Little high little low!


The title merely reflects a rather cute memory of Stewart Little (the movie) :)

Today was a cool day! Basically, I signed up for this online class (Stanford - Artificial Intelligence = awesome), and was wondering how things would get done with the thesis and all .. It was tough to take the whole lectures and answer in-class quizzes (and er, not score well in them :S).. but the final homework's grades just came out today. And I didn't do badly at all.

In fact, I was so elated with my precious 89%, that I let out an exclamation, and Chotpo who had gone to sleep nearby woke up in alarm (and er, a scowl)..

And when I went to the forums to check out how others have done.. so..*trying not to laugh now*... my whole bubble just went..

Lol. People had a 100% easily. But the thing is what do you expect from a class of over 140k students :D. And as Chotpo (how loyal of her MA) said, "You can't expect to see scores below 80% anyway, because people will be too ashamed to post 'em." Hee hee.

Anyway, the class is awesome. We've just started Bayes Networks, and the instructor (no other than Sebastian Thrun!) has said that this is the building block of nearly every AI-based system and Computer Vision application. The applications which he counted off included ... Kalman Filters, Hidden Markov Models, and the stuff which I normally stare at .. at research papers and wonder what this greek is all about.

:S. But probability is tough! And I'm taking further lectures from Khan Academy. It's so awesome. Wouldn't it be cool to have a Uni-Academy too? *lost in fantasies*. I could teach people, the basics of er... something. Man, I should have done these basic things before.. well, now!

But anyway, at least I'm learning now. **determined not to get into the not-having-done-these-earlier-in-life syndrome** ...

Hope you people are having an academically fulfilling time too! (and er, can't wait for December! When I don't have to sur-marofye on this ... *refuses to call this an MS project*.. stuff that I am doing!). But anyway... :P

So long!

PS: Finally learned Surah Baqarah :D:D:D. **trying to sit still and get back to work**... But erm, obviously, have to revise lots.

PS: Oh yeah, just remembered. Have to post something worthwhile in every post Insha Allah. So today, read this hadith,

The Prophet sallAllaahu `alayhi wa sallam also said:►"The best of you is he who learns the Qur'aan and teaches it." [al-Bukhaaree in his Saheeh (9/66).]

And I thought to myself. We have so many standards for success in this life. And so many criteria for being the 'best' at something - be it looks, wealth, property, skills, jobs, careers etc etc. And this one hadith clearly highlights who is the BEST in Allah's books.. and that's the person who has learned the Quran (as in, studied it extensively) and teaches it to others.

May Allah Enable us to learn and study the Quran (be it a little every day), and Enable us to pass on the lessons learned (be it a little every day), and try to achieve the 'best' status in that regard too. Ameen

Monday, October 17, 2011


Being in a lousy mood all day, this video made me ashamed to the core. This goes out for me first (as usual :)..).. but I hope the viewers take a lesson from this too.

May Allah Make us of the highest level in Jannah, Ameen.

Sunday, October 16, 2011

Lessons of the day!


Today was a kind of day, that begs to be forgotten. The good part is, that I went to the Quran class :). And the bad part is, that the teacher seemed disappointed with the lack of consistent attendance :(..

*sees pointed fingers towards her*.. she also mentioned something on the lines of that this is just once a week. There is no excuse for leaving it.

One useful info I learned from today's lesson, which I want to share is the connection between some verses of Surah Baqarah.


99. And indeed We have sent down to you manifest Ayat (these Verses of the Qur'an which inform in detail about the news of the Jews and their secret intentions, etc.), and none disbelieve in them but Fasiqun (those who rebel against Allah's Command).

100. Is it not (the case) that every time they make a covenant, some party among them throw it aside? Nay! the truth is most of them believe not.

101. And when there came to them a Messenger from Allah (i.e. Muhammad Peace be upon him ) confirming what was with them, a party of those who were given the Scripture threw away the Book of Allah behind their backs as if they did not know!

102. They followed what the Shayatin (devils) gave out (falsely of the magic) in the lifetime of Sulaiman (Solomon). Sulaiman did not disbelieve, but the Shayatin (devils) disbelieved, teaching men magic and such things that came down at Babylon to the two angels, Harut and Marut, but neither of these two (angels) taught anyone (such things) till they had said, "We are only for trial, so disbelieve not (by learning this magic from us)." And from these (angels) people learn that by which they cause separation between man and his wife, but they could not thus harm anyone except by Allah's Leave. And they learn that which harms them and profits them not. And indeed they knew that the buyers of it (magic) would have no share in the Hereafter. And how bad indeed was that for which they sold their ownselves, if they but knew.

Whenever I read these, I always wondered, how come Hazrat Sulaiman's time and magic is being mentioned here.. apparently it seems to be out of the blue. The fact is that the verses above verse 102, LEAD to this verse. How?

The above verses talk about the Jews. But since I am me, the lesson is for ME. (That's the first principle).

Secondly, whoever rejects the covenant made with Allah (we have made one too), and throws the Book (Quran in our case) on the back burner, then the ultimate path to follow would be of one's own whims and desires - of shortcuts and talismans, and THIS leads to magic..

The magic that was practiced at the time of Sulaiman AS, when the people there started following the devils and their practices. Today, in this day and age, in the age of advanced technology and all the education in the world, we're still very much there. We too, believe in shortcuts and devise ways and means to get to our worldly goals. If those means coincide with Allah's Wishes, well and good. If they don't... then so be it.

This is the attitude that needs to change. And this can only be changed when the Holy Quran takes the central role in our lives, not to be brought down from the topmost shelf on occasions (like funerals, or doing a wazeefa), but to be made a part of daily life, daily routine.

May Allah Enable me to follow this and then to everybody else as well. Ameen.

Wednesday, October 12, 2011


I'm a left-brained person?
No way!

Right Brain/ Left Brain Quiz
The higher of these two numbers below indicates which side of your brain has dominance in your life. Realising your right brain/left brain tendancy will help you interact with and to understand others.
Left Brain Dominance: 12(12)
Right Brain Dominance: 9(9)
Right Brain/ Left Brain Quiz

Did another one just to make sure.

Thank you for taking the Creativity Test. The results show your brain dominance as being:

Left Brain Right Brain
59% 41%

You are more left-brained than right-brained. Your left brain controls the right side of your body. In addition to being known as left-brained, you are also known as a critical thinker who uses logic and sense to collect information. You are able to retain this information through the use of numbers, words, and symbols. You usually only see parts of the "whole" picture, but this is what guides you step-by-step in a logical manner to your conclusion. Concise words, numerical and written formulas and technological systems are often forms of expression for you. Some occupations usually held by a left-brained person include a lab scientist, banker, judge, lawyer, mathematician, librarian, and skating judge.

Your complete evaluation follows below:

Your left brain/right brain percentage was calculated by combining the individual scores of each half's sub-categories. They are as follows:

Your Left Brain Percentages
  60% Verbal (Your most dominant characteristic)
  59% Symbolic
  43% Linear
  34% Logical
  27% Reality-based
  14% Sequential (Your least dominant characteristic)

Your Right Brain Percentages
  50% Nonverbal (Your most dominant characteristic)
  39% Random
  29% Intuitive
  24% Fantasy-oriented
  10% Concrete
  0% Holistic (Your least dominant characteristic)

Monday, October 10, 2011

Wish I Could Stop Thinking


I've stopped writing poetry. I don't really know what was the turning point - but I really have stopped. And stopped feeling the urge to let out the words in verses too. I miss the feeling. I miss the feeling of having words in my head.

Since missing it won't bring it back, I'll force myself to write one:

So here goes.

In the dewy mist of wintery dawn
She stands there, all forlorn
Looking for something to make it right
Something, anything - any bright light

During the scorching summer days
Her parched imagination seeks some rays
Of creativity, of work more than just play
Something, anything - any small way

As the sun sets behind the golden hill
Her hungry eyes, so empty, so still
Seeks the twilight, takes its fill
Something, anything - any strong pill

When the moon shows its glorious face
She stares at it, soaking up the rays
Wishing so hard, she had the pace
Something, anything - in this case

As darkness falls, she feels the pain
Fears and tepidations ebbs and wanes
She hopes it's soon she wouldn't feign

Something, anything - ever again

Copyright Uni_Overidiotic-oony 2011

It goes without saying that I had another bad meeting with my supervisor. He's really happy with my work.

Aren't the above two sentences contradictory? Lol.

I wish I were happy with my work.

Tuesday, October 4, 2011

I do try not to whine much :P


One of the ways people cope with hard situations is to joke about it. Since I'm no great joker, this post might just seem plain weird.

Today was one low day of my life. I had not been in to meet my supervisor for the past two weeks. One because he was busy. Second because I was staying at the hospital. The past few days I had worked like mad to try and gather stuff to show him. And I thought it's pretty good going.. I mean, hello! It ain't easy to write an Introduction (whole chapter), and 4-5 pages worth of Literature review (2nd chapter) in a few days !!


What do you think should have happened?

He looked through the stuff, and said the following things:

1. Beta, you need to (now) give 15 hours per day
2. The difference between you and me is that i worked 12 hours in university, and you stay at home and work from there.
3. You need to get rid of any and every distract-er
4. You need to increase productivity


Man, did my heart sink or what.

**suddenly remembers that she was supposed to be humorous about it**

Oh forget it. Right now I already feel miserable because a friend of mine happens to be a sad soul, and I wish I could help.

So long... *quite mournfully*

To get something (at least something!) out of this post, let me share something worthy of sharing:
[Hadith]Allah's Messenger, sal Allahu alayhi wa sallam, said, "Be
honest, for verily honesty leads to righteousness, and
righteousness leads to paradise."

[Lessons from this Hadith]
Live your life in a way that if someone was to open the door on
you at any moment, you would have nothing to hide. This is true
success. Think of something that you may be ashamed people will
find out about, and take some action right now to stop doing

With best wishes to see you succeed at the highest level!
- Muhammad Alshareef

May Allah Make me 100% honest, [and then others] :(. Ameen.

Saturday, October 1, 2011

I wish I knew

Random emotions of the day [in pictures]

Random snippets of conversations today:

AJ: Why are you scolding me?
Me: I'm not scolding you!
AJ: Yes you are!
Me: *loud sigh*

AJ: Please do this this that that
Me: *louder sigh*
AJ: How come you're behaving like this?
Me: What was it that you wanted? **dangerously polite voice**

TIINTB: There's something in your tone... not normal.
Me: Is it?
TIINTB: Yeah, I have vibes
Me: Oh..

AJ: Wake up! What's wrong with you
Me: *hardly able to open eyes*
AJ: It's 12!!!!!
Me: Oh my God..

TIINTB: How come you were talking so differently?
AJ: What's wrong with you!!!