Fact is, I'm bored. Bored sick. Bored to the point of no-return. Bored to death. No wait, I'm alive.. I mean bored to tears...bored to intense frustration which makes me wanna pull all my hair out... bored to the point of *stops herself*...
My current subject (the one of which I have a midterm exam exactly 1.5 days from now on... :@), is something out of the 'Guinness World Record for the Most Soporific Subject Ever!' ... I hate it. From the bottom-est core of my heart.
It's so boring, that I have been blindly (yes!) reading through pages and pages, for the past 2 days now. Blindly. Trying in some way or the other, to somehow, plant this junk .. in my brain -- rote learn it or understand it.. (it makes no difference whatsoever)... somehow, be able to vomit it out when the exam paper comes in front of me.
Usually, my tactic (for such subjects) is to 'write stuff down' so my hands remember the fuzool variables, and where they are placed (in the juungglaanaa derivations). But now, even my hands protest at the gross violation of their basic er, hand-yy rights. It's dry/boring/senseless to the extreme!!
And I am heck annoyed at the SMSs I am receiving... Take a look at this!
Text: "What is the answer of xyz question in the midterm?
My text: "Haven't solved! Haven't reached that point!"
Text: When are you going to do it?
Me: I don't know!
Text: Do so!
Me: Fine. Will verify the answers later
Text: Not too late. I won't be looking at the numericals in the end, okay
Me: *bursting point* ... Fine!
Another text: See lec 3, page 3, line 3, equation 4 ,
Me: *goes painstakingly through the lecs and replies* Bilkul Sahe
Text: Check the signs. Are they correct?
Me: *bursting point again* .. JEE bilkul correct...
Text: Thanks very much.. ?? (Ha! In my dreams. Common courtesy is nowhere to be found!)
I normally like text books. They make much more sense than the scribbles in class. But in this case, where the Bibliography shows research papers upon research papers, dated as latest as 1986... even the book is beyond hopeless. I am NOT able to understand what role does a 'Consensus Problem' in Synchronization (I think) plays in my life.. when I have not a single idea of its practical application, or any kind (even superficial would do) implementation. It's all 'in the air' - and my heart refuses to accept it.... and no amount of coaxing by my brain is leading to any consensus b/w my brain and heart. I remain, distracted to the nth degree (knowing this is my last chance to somehow maintain my GPA)... but as I said, no amount of cajoling with myself is leading to ANY interest in ANY Consensus Problem, Interactive Convergence Algorithm or that stupid beyond stupid Master/Slave Clock Synchronizing Algorithm. Sucks!! :@
*scowls very deeply*
Add to that the lovely comment by our ever lovely Interior Minister, just puts the icing on a lovely day... *clenched teeth*.. what a superbly self-immersed ratty dimwit of a moronic .... *stops herself*. If I had a rolling pin right now...