The day started at Fajr. I was completely in a zombie mode. Having had a good night's sleep last night (totally unexpected!), I wasn't sleepy, but totally numb. Inside out. It was as if everything was happening in slow motion!
I am going to take this post slowly. Sorry!! I have to take it out of my system!
Sooo, then I tried to gulp down breakfast. Nothing would stay in my stomach. So much for kaajoo and dates.. :S, finally, it was time to leave. My folks looked more nervous than me :D. That was sooo cute. At breakfast table, Dad (who had especially come back home early from his after-Fajr walk) sat and said duaa and what not. Man, was I all choked up or what!
Then I left, mom and dad both at the door, anxiously watching me. I had already told them what to expect and to mom that I am going to give this exam again, because I was pretty sure I won't do well today. Reached the center. Tried not to throw up with nerves. Signed the confidentiality agreement, and tried not to wish there were more gee are eee people there (besides me). I'm not writing the full form, because of the stupid spam comments. Khair, a handful of scared looking students sat around... they were all USMLE Step 1 people.
That section done, I was given a ten minute break. I leaped up and went outside... had Mars mini chocolate and tried not to panic about the up coming Verbal and Quantitative sections (which are the most scary btw)...
After seven minutes, went back to the PC and the section that was thrown at me was the Quantitative one. Now imagine, just having eaten a Mars, strolling in the room, sitting down... one click! And you're facing a kaafi idiotic question on algebra (I think). God! I stared at it in amazement. Then got the sense to glance at the clock and realize one full minute had gone by (so only 44 minutes left!), and hurried back to the question. Took me another minute! (And the first questions are supposed to be not hard!). :( So as always, I was slow and painfully methodical. I HAVE to multiply numbers on PAPER...and even if I can do it in my head, my heart's never convinced that I have gotten it right. So it was no surprise, that I had done only 12 questions, and 15 minutes were left!!
I had to rush! Gee areee eeeee penalizes you more if you leave questions, rather than if you guess em wrong. So I - vainly trying to somehow get the answer of (21) ^ 1/2 [under-root 21] and failing completely to work out the answer to this question I was badly stuck in, I made painful guesses. I was so depressed while doing this !! Because obviously the clock was ticking!
Khair, that section was somehow, completed. Tried to take a few deep breaths, before 1 minute passed, and the Verbal section was thrown at me. The beginning questions were all cool. I was SO glad of the laborious hours spent on vocab! Alhamdulillah. BUT... the reading comprehension was extremely tough! I find questions like these very tough which ask us to tell (after reading a 4-paragraph essay) the organization of the passage! Man. Us main I took too much time. So that in the 30question-30 minute deal, I was again SADLY short of time. Now imagine this. 7 questions left... and 7 minutes... AND ...the next question I get, is another reading comprehension...!!! Something you have to spend more than a minute on - per question!! However firmly I screeched inwardly that:
Khair. Verbal done. I was again given a minute's break, and I braced myself for the next section which would be either Verbal or quantitative again. See, they have an unscored section (which we don't know in advance)... and this section has to be solved assuming that it is scored... because you can't distinguish between scored and unscored sections. So I was desperately hoping that whichever section comes up, is NOT unscored, so that the previous badly executed attempts would be the unscored one. Ehh :D.. nothing happened which I was expecting. The next section thrown at me, was the Research Section. This is also an unscored section, but the difference is, they TELL you. That it is an unscored section. So the next 30 minutes of mine, were spent doing a section which would have no effect on my score.
That done too...
And the screen popped up: Would you like to see your scores. My heart nearly stopped!
I clicked next! And it asked me... are you sure you want to view em? And not cancel the test? Uff. As if I can ever BEAR not to know (however badly I perform) how I did. I thought for quite a while - before clicking yes. You know why? Because I was steeling myself.. preparing myself to see something like 600 in Verbal and 650 in Quantitative. I knew I hadn't done well. And then ... I finally clicked the button.
I have a crazy feeling to write ''To be contd tomorrow" and leave - that's sadistic waisay! So I'll just be out with it. The scores that came up - made me go...
I was in a complete daze. Slowly, took the pencil, wrote these two down and added them up (ON PAPER!), and it came out to be 1510!!!
Alhamdulillah :D. The miracle actually HAPPENED. ON GROUND! Alhamdulillah!
It began to sink in! I couldn't stop smiling :D:D.
Trying not to skip out of the place into the car. It was a thrilling ride back home :D. Not even in my wildest imagination could I ever imagine this kind of a score :D with the kind of prep I had done - lasting 23 days... :S. Have learned some valuable lessons!
1. Follow people's good advices
2. Work hard. It does pay off!
3. Be miserable during exam prep. The results are cool :D
4. If you want to know how much your family loves you, give the gee arrr eeee
Waisay, I'd like to thank all the good people on earth who helped me out :). *feel like I've received an oscar or something* :D
All the advices, help, tips and encouragement is appreciated from the bottom of my heart :D. From the detailed explanation on how to tackle vocab questions, to the recommendations of books from which to prepare, to the pdf documents emailed for math review and the encouraging words 2 days before the test :D:D... I'm a mass of gratefulness. May Allah Reward you good people for helping silly souls in exams :D!
So now I am finally OFF. Sorry for making a small point seem so big :P.. but as I said before, I need to get it out of my system now. Have lots to work on :(... back to reality!
Er, but maybe for today... I can be all...