Today I learned something important. Our tajwid teacher started this discussion a couple of days back, titled "Dunya kee haqeeqat" (The reality of this world), and we had a good discussion on things that SEEM tooooo important, but in reality, your heart is just hanging on to it, and it's only a matter of careful thought that you realise the MORE important things in this life (Like the Hereafter), and let go of the things you adore easily peasily and with a smile on your face. NOW. The practical bit. We were asked to bring stuff from our homes that we can NEVER part with, things we hold MOST dear and can't even think of giving them away.
People got interesting stuff... Some brought their diaries, notebooks where they'd written their shairs (verses), watches and pens, gifts and cards given by friends, one lady brought her often-used Holy Quran etc :). I had taken my precious Physics books (which I sadly don't let people touch :$), my netbook (dad's suggestion, I had forgotten), and my toys. Er, :$ that toys bit was really embarrassing. Imagine the girls' shrieks when my theli was opened up, and the jumping spider, snakes, lizards and flies were brought out, ughed and ewwwed over, and passed around with revolted looks. "WHO in the world would hold THESE precious!!" remarked one disgusted young lady. I couldn't sink in my seat lower :S
Khair. The point to note is that the teacher had brought jewellery items (as HER precious things) and she calmly distributed her stuff among the students. After we had exclaimed over her gesture, she says "This is the maqsad (aim) of this exercise - to inculcate the feeling that yes, I can give these precious things away - I'm not holding on to anything in life because my life here is temporary and not permanent." We were rather silent and awed by this gesture.
But .... HOW can I give those Phy books awayyy! *wails*..
There was a friend's wedding a couple of days back. All the A-Level crowd had gathered together and Masha Allah those friends were also there who live abroad ... so it was a huge reunion. Sigh. EVERYBODY who met me exclaimed "OMG ... is this U!!!???"... :(
Today, I took out some old CDs of our A-Level farewell and graduation ceremonies.. *nostalgic smile*. Those were the years, seriously. 2004 was I think, the very best! Anyway, the emotions struck me pretty strongly, as I watched myself entering the farewell hall, accompanied by friends and other teachers (the graduating class had quite an entrance), and something that struck me a lil too high was that right beside me, another student was entering the hall, chatting on the phone: And he was the President of our batch. Ahmed Mehroz. He's no longer there. This was what hit the hardest -- and i guess that's pretty normal when you see somebody laughing and talking, completely normally around with friends, not knowing that only 2-3 years down the line, his life will be over... *sniffles*..
It was worse watching the Graduation video, because the Students Council had entered with the flags, and there he was again. Then he was supposed to give the vote of thanks and me the valedictorian speech -- these things brought back such amazing memories ... it was a truly happy time and we really and truly didn't care much about our futures, our lives, what we were going to do next etc...
I don't really wish for that time to come again, because obviously I wouldn't want a repeat of these times... but I sure do wish there was a warning period, where a person would have known that the end is near - and would have turned a new leaf or something. I am so scared of dying while watching Wizards of Waverly Place (yuck).