The day was beyond horrible. And the worst bit is, that I had had such fun yesterday. Things started going downhill from last night, and they just hit rock bottom today. Let me begin.
I have joined a three-month (seh-maahi) course on Quran Fehmi. This course, I had assumed, would be like a class thing - the timings were 9 am to 1 pm everyday except Friday and Sunday. It sounded pretty much okay managed with Masters studies etcetera. In fact, I was quite quite apprehensive in the beginning regarding what's going to happen etc, but only in the first few days, things had looked promising. Even though the subjects were MANY, not one, as I had assumed earlier. Quran, Hadith, Fiqh, Arabic Grammar, Arabic Tajwid, Calligraphy (!!), Computer studies and if there was anything else, I'm forgetting. *wearily*
But the thing is, that I had joined the course on the basis of this that we spend a LOAD of time on acquiring knowlegde about the world... and very little time to learn about our deen. And informal learning of deen/Arabic is wayyy different, and wayyyyy more unstable than formal learning. Experience of teachers + the class environment + the competition... it all works towards making one learn and feel motivated enough to learn.
The downside of this course is that it's taught completely totally entirely in Urdu. And I'm ashamed to admit, my Urdu leaves a lot to be desired. I mean, I have problems regarding vocab. And when I stare in confusion at the teacher, she looks at me kindly and explains again (using the same words!) and again... thinking, I don't understand the concept.. while all the time, my vocab is the one thats getting me into trouble.
Well, not only the vocab! My memory TOO. HA! I just ........... cannot............... rote-learn! And the gardaanain (I have no idea whats that in English) is something that one HAS to learn. Now my Dad also studies Arabic online (from this nice teacher called Asif Meherally -- and that teacher sings out the gardaanain :D ..so my dad was singing away too).. but here, it's complete and total, eyes-tightly-shut-body-swaying RATTA.
Hua, Huma, Hum --- Heeyaa, Humaa, Hunna (he, they both, them -- she, they both and them for female). Sighhhhhhhh.
Khair. The worst bit came today when Grammar teacher announced that she would be asking stuff that we have studied in the past few days. I stared at her in horror ... I had thought that she would just ask the gardanain, but apparently, the students had learnt up! And my humiliation was complete when she asked me 'Arbi grammar kee kitni aqsaam hain?' ... and I wasn't able to answer... (in grammar, that's like asking, tell me the spelling of grammar beta).. That simple!
Tajwid wasn't much better. I had painstaingly learned stuff. But I could only say it in my own words! AND I dunno what "taaiyyun" means! I just don't!.. and I always in my life thought "daarh" means the tooth! But apparently, it means the gums/root of teeth. **sniffles**... No wonder they all grinned and flashed their teeth. I'm somewhat of a joke in class. Not to mention, I was introduced to the new kid in class as "Aray, yeh to humari class kee angraiz hain" -- I've never been so embarrassed in my life. I have no excuse for not knowing Urdu.. (even though :D bless Mum... she indignantly said today that you should have said to the class that your parents both are non-Urdu speaking!).. and I was like Mum... we've always been spoken to in Urdu at home nah, .. but her reply was that :) you guys haven't been spoken to in real/salees Urdu!
In a nutshell, I have to endure this. I am learning, but it comes with a price. And it doesn't make sense to me to learn so much stuff (cram it all in and rote-learn) and forget all about it in a few weeks. My dad still recites the grammar (sings) :P.. because the methodology with which he was taught was designed to preserve learning. How I wish we can come up with learning/preserving methodologies as well.
I know I'm not going to remember this later on: See, there is something called "murakkab" (the teacher said after a long time that in english, we call is compound)... :S She could have said it earlier, and saved me eons of confusion ... Anyway, this murakkab thingie has 4 or 5 types. One of the types is called "Murakkab-e-Tauseefi" and this Murakkab-e-Tauseefi has four ways in which you can look at a word and recognize it as Murakkab-e-Tauseefi...(four identifiers kinda)..otherwise it's some other Murakkab...
I listened to this whole thing with disbelief... I'm not able to understand maybe...but I'm clueless as to the importance of studying this.. SAY, I read the Quran and look at a compound sentence and say heyyy this is a Murakkab! And heyy heyy heyyy heyyyy...four identifiers are there! So this is a Murakkab-e-Tauseefi!
What does that gain me!!??
If somebody understands rules of Grammar, please enlighten me!
Tajwid is another disaster ... Huroof-e-Halqi, Huroof-e-Shafwiaa, Huroof-e-Lahaatia, Huroof-e-Haafia etc etc etc you got to know the alphabets that fall under these categories, and their makhaarij (from what part of your face will you pronounce them)!! And dare you explain them in your own words :(... the class stares in amusement, and teacher pronounces "Aagay peechay bola hay, ooncha neecha hay laikin chal jayy gaa" .... *deep sigh*
The Calligraphy thing was okay...had never used a cut-pen before :D... I mean, I suck at drawing, but I didn't think I was that bad at "Khush-Khatti" :P... until I went to the teacher, and showed my stuff. The response was "Yeh jeem sahee say nahi bana hua ...you need to practise lots!" ...