This too shall pass, I'm hoping

Fury rages, but not for long
Harsh words spoken, a deadly song
Glaring doesn't help, nor does moping
This too shall pass -- I'm hoping

Clenched fists, scowls and frowns
Yes indeedy, looking like a clown
For positivities, sunshine, desperately groping
This too shall pass -- I'm hoping

Anger is not good, boy do I know
Why do I feel it, why do I show
My nafs needs some serious soaping
This too shall pass -- I'm hoping

Maybe I insist too much, or cling-ofye
I am a nuisance -- why don't I realise?
Fate's strict hand, yeah well, I'm coping
This too shall pass -- I'm hoping

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Jhat Pat Tag(ged) by nobody :D

Yet.. I'm in such a joyous mood (despite the worries all around me :D), that I kinda WANT to do this useless, totally wasteful, (and hence fun) tag .. called the .. JHAT PAT tag :D

Here I go. Everybody who reads this is tagged :P

1. Grab the book nearest to you, turn on page 18 and find line 4.

:D:D The first answer is that AI from the start embraced the idea of duplicating human faculties like creativity, self-improvement and language use.
(no points for guessing which book is this :D)

2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can and; catch air?
My DVDs come in the way :P

3. What is the last thing you watched on T. V.?
:S:S Zack and Cody yesterday

 4. Without looking, guess what time it is?
It is 9.30 pm (I guess)

 5. Now look at the clock, what is the actual time?
9.25 pm :)

 6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
Mum giving a blow by blow account to sis on the fellytone. And the fan. And the noisy PC behind me. :S

 7. When did you last step outside? What were you doing?
I went out yesterday to drop sis home..

 8. Before you started this Q&A, what did you look at?
The blog where I picked this up from. Erm.. quite interesting one, but I'm not quoting it. 

 9. What are you wearing?
Kameez shalwar of course. Eid kay second day kaa -- it was that simple :P

 10. When did you last laugh?
Um.. that's a tough one. Or.. no it isn't. Last night watching Zack and Cody. Maybe I laughed today too.. its all a haze.

11. What is on the walls of the room you are in?
My fighter jet posters, wall clock, *cranes her neck and looks around*, my two titles :D

12. Seen anything weird lately?
The blog where I picked this thing from :)

 13. What do you think of this quiz?
Something senseless and fun. Something I desperately need :)

 14. What is the last film you saw?
Er.. Lemme think. It was a Van Diesel one... I was hooked to it. Shukkar came to my senses after an hour of glazed staring, and got up. I think it was called Babylon AD .. or something. It was cool :)

 15. If you became a multimillionaire overnight, what would you buy?
I think I'd like to pay for an abroad education and the rest, give it away to worthy causes. But the question asked about buying..:S .. maybe soap. :S


16. Tell me something about you that I dunno!
I'm rude :P

17. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what
would you do?
Well, I'd like to round up all the corrupt politicians in the world (and Madoff too), starting from my country. And take them to Siberia. Make them work hard. And when they beg to be let out, I'd remind them of their past misdeeds, and only let them free on .... er, okay. That ain't happening :D


18. Do you like to Dance?
No :D But I like aerobics. Kinda like dancing.


19. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?
Welllllll......... I'd like to go for Eishal, but I know mum won't let me.


20. Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?
Khalid bin Waleed! (but for that, I'd have to find a Waleed first, so er, .. leave that).
Same for Musab bin Umair .. :S

21. Would you ever consider living abroad?
Previously, I would have said: NEVER. Now however, I'd go for .. "Most probably yes."

22. What do you want GOD to say to you when you reach the pearly gates?
Umm.. I'd like to quote a part of a Surah here here.. :) Its Surah Fajr, verses 27 to 30 --

27. (It will be said to the pious): "O (you) the one in (complete) rest and satisfaction!
28. "Come back to your Lord, Well-pleased (yourself) and well-pleasing unto Him!
29. "Enter you, then, among My honoured slaves,
30. "And enter you My Paradise!"



Except for the last question, this thing was ....

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India vs Pakistan - Live scoreboard

Talk about a lousy end of innings.. :'(
*scowl*

Updated at the end of Pak-India match -- We won :D CoooooL...Alhamdulillah! Now this is a live scoreboard of all the matches :)

So long!

Ahh.. work would be amazing :D

I know perfectly well I should get down to some serious studying. I don't have much time left. And its not just the midterms I'm talking about. The atmosphere is such that its hard to even LOOK at my books and lectures. Not to mention switching theory has never seemed more ... unappealing. (although I really did like logic design and all the ones and zeros -- best thing about them, they're only TWO).. :)

But the procrastinator that I am.. :( Its just too hard right now to study. Which got me into looking at some really cool workspaces. Not THAT's something worth looking forward to for work! Check them out ... (and yes, a huge huge sigh at the gadgetry)

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Excuses excuses... but these are just lovely :D

Khair. Hope I stop the day dream. (night dream basically). Have to set up a schedule.. early nights.. early mornings. No more 4 ams. No more 2 ams. Er.. its 2.08 right now. Erm. From tomorrow Insha Allah!

So long :)

A little confusing...

Assalamualaikum

I hope I would not be creating confusion here. It's more like I'm seeking a solution. Maybe its right there, and only my "heart's desire" that is preventing me from accepting this.

The hadith I read today is narrated by Ahmed, Muslim, Abu Dawud, Tirmidhi and Ibne Maajah)

The Prophet (peace be upon him) has stated, "It is not lawful for a woman, who has firm faith in Allah and the Day of Judgement, to undertake a journey for three or more days (48 miles or more) unless she is accompanied by her father, son, husband, brother or a Mahram."

Mahram: anybody she is not allowed to marry --

Now this ruling shows (and Saudis implement this very strictly I've heard), that a woman isn't allowed to travel without a mahram for NO NECESSARY reason. Necessities are always exceptions... but for unnecessary reasons, this ruling seems to be very clear. Er, it is very clear.

Unnecessary reasons may include traveling (just for fun), entertainment or sight-seeing. But what about travel for studies? And therein lies my dilemma. I had made big plans of studying abroad ...(and they're still part of my plans).. but .. but.. if its not necessary..(and sure its not necessary..because I CAN study here too -- heck I AM studying here too ...) then this means that even I am supposed to obey this ruling and stay well away from this.

People say that hello! In today's world, distances have shrunk! And due to the modern aircraft, distances that were HUGE at the time of the Holy Prophet (saw), basically because travel was done via camels, and it took many days.. and many crimes could be committed in the dead of the night if a woman was alone, HENCE this hadith. In modern times, it is not applicable because there isn't that great a journey time. Um, yeah. Even with transits and all. Then this hadith is also quoted, that :
(I can't find its narration line.. if somebody does, please do tell. Its quite a famous hadith)..

We can understand this from the Prophet (peace and blessings be upon him) when he promised `Adi ibn Hatim At-Ta’iy (may Allah be pleased with him) three signs when he accepted Islam: that Islam would reach the east and the west; that the companions would obtain the treasures of Kisra, the king of Persia; and that peace would be spread all over the world when Islam reached the east and west so that a woman would be able to travel alone from Yemen to Hadramout not fearing anything but Allah and the wolf, meaning she would fear nothing.

From the Fatwa of a famous Da'í Zaienub Mustafa taken from islamonline.net

This fatwa states that it is permissible to travel with specific reasons like education.

Now these are two conflicting views. If a hadith (saheeh) is present today. It means something today. If it had a weak source, then there wouldn't have been such a consensus among scholars that it is not permissible for women to travel without a mahram (and I'm not just talking about Saudi scholars). Not to mention the aspect of "living alone."

Its hard to decide. Both views are presented here. It's hard because the nafs begs to differ with a "hardline" approach, whereas the zameer warns that "there may be an element of truth in the scholars' unanimous decisions"

Only Allah Knows best, and yes, may He Guide us in the best possible manner. Ameen.

PS: The distance between Karachi and London is 3927 miles :S:S:S *troubled soul*

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A really lovely piece of recitation

A blessed month, and Eid :)

Assalamualaikum

Writing in this post box actually feels NEW. It's been so long (one month to be exact) since I last posetd on my blog. There is so much to tell, so much to pen down before I forget all the good things I learned during the Holy month. I am seriously thinking about changing the theme, layout, title and contents of this blog. Let's see what I can come up with...(with my laziness and everything :S).

Ramadan was a mixture of events. Some extremely spiritually satisfactory, some rather like huge trials etc.


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The spiritual satisfaction came from .. of course, reading the Holy Quran. I was sadly sadly out of touch with the Holy Book. It would be long periods of time between reading one or two rukuhs with translation and tafseer. But in Ramadan... Alhamdulillah :) That's the beauty of this month. It brings opportunities, for the soul to lean more towards the side which seems outwardly difficult... but where it actually finds rest.

The taraweeh was a little different this time. Er, no. A LOT different this time. We were attending the kind of taraweeh, where they offer Isha prayers first, then sit and read/discuss the translation of the portion of Holy Quran that is to be recited next in the taraweeh. This way, when we actually get up to offer the 4 rakahs, (or 8), its like.. we're communicating directly to Allah... in the real sense of communication. (not just lip movement, body actions and assalamualaikum wa rahmatullah, now run)... Nopes.

It was amazing. Absolutely totally utterly superb. The duration was long. Starting from 9.30, it went on till 2.00 am. We were almost never able to attend the whole thing.. because I was to drive back with Mum, so er, Dad was a lil strict here. But those 12 rakahs of taraweeh were the best, most meaningful offered ...ever. :)

I miss it. :S


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There were periods of trials. Small ones to hugely difficult ones. I dont want to dwell on the negativities, but I'll just write in point form..(i'm human... bound to make mistakes.. couldn't have hoped for a 100% perfect month now could i) :S

1. Houswork became a trial when it was Asr time, I was dead... and had to go to the kitchen. Temper short, time less... glares quite a few! May Allah Forgive me for the rudeness which emanated from me occassionally at this time.

2. There were times i couldn't give 100% concentration to the Holy Quran ... and other books I tried to read. I tried. It didn't work.

3. I didn't study at all. The worry nearly drove me crazy. But I hope to start tomorrow. Midterms and GAT coming up ... only Allah can Help me here... it's terrible. But I didn't find even 10 minutes!

4. Slept late. Like till 1.00 to 2.00 pm kinda late .. :S Got quite a few scolding on that too.

5. Hurt one or two people quite deeply. It was not intended. But it happened. Here, I can only send out a virtual plea for them to find it in their hearts to forgive and forget, and of course, to God to somehow Overlook the many mistakes I have managed to make in these not-quite-three decades of my life.


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Point number 5 actually prevented me from sleep at night, so consumed I was with guilt.

The last ten days were marvelous ... :) It was a pleasure to stay awake nights (odd) of the last ten days, and er, also because nights are very short. So counting taraweeh return time , which was like 2.00 (on those nights), and one hour of dinner, this leaves only er, 2 hours till sehri... :$. So I know, I know. No biggie.

Now the aims .. (man, I can get boring) :D..


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1. Will Insha Allah aim to have the same authority over the Holy Quran, as I kinda have with... *blushes very deeply*... Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows :S.. kis chapter main kia hay... kis paragraph main kia kaha hay...etc. Its shameful beyond shameful. But we neglect the One Book we shouldn't neglect quite easily.

2. Will try my best to learn Arabic.

3. Will try to join/form a group of people with similar interests. If there is something I have learned, its that ibadah and learning can't be done alone...(it can, but not with the same effectiveness).

4. Oh yeah, concentrate on my MS as well.

Do remember me in prayers.

Allah hafiz and peace and blessings of Allah (SWT) be on you all. :)

Eid Mubarak!


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