Salaam
I have never been so ANGRY in my ENTIRE life. I HATE people who write in CAPS, but right now, there is so much HATRED inside of me, that I'm bound to let some of it out, in the MEANEST way possible.
It sucks that I can't confide in ANYBODY else. And that is ALSO my own damn fault! I give promises to people I have trouble keeping. They keep me awake at night. Problem is, that if I break those promises, and confide in anyone, the resulting guilt would keep me awake at night too.
It's a lose-lose situation! There is NO solution! NO respite! NO freedom! NO consolation.
Whatever I do, turns out to be a disaster. (Man...this is ONE whiny blog post).. Laikin it's all true. I'm hating my life right now. All my pending work is ...just that. Pending.
I am unable to concentrate! I hate being unable to concentrate? All my thoughts, feelings are running around wildly, at random (thats why this entry is so incoherent). I don't have the time to bring coherence into my life.
Everything is upside down, topsy turvy. And there is not even ONE person on this planet who understands. My only hope is in One Deity Who Understands everybody and thats why I turn only to prayers.
My mind pulls me in one direction, my conscience pulls me in another direction and my heart pulls me in the third direction. All three of them 120 degrees apart ! :(:(:( Divergent...away from each other. No "meeting together at any point."
I have a huge test coming up on saturday, another huge (and nasty) one on Monday! And i haven't even started studying (not even started, yeah).
You know.. I have seen one thing. Jiss cheez kee bunyaad hee galat ho, woh cheez kabhi pinap nahin sakti (something which has a wrong foundation, that something can never survive without problems).
My problems seem to be the result of such a foundation. I know I must sound like a rambly moron, laikin remember, I do wish I could elaborate more.
*miserable beyond words*
7 comments:
Salaam,
It seems you are angry enough not to even listen to anybody.
Be concerned about issues in your life but according to their worth.
Also, what is valuable for me might not be that important for you.
So, first things have to be weighted in some absolute manner...and then do worry about them :)
I think the one who is having a conversation with you should first get the "CAPS" key "extracted" from keyboard? :)
Take care,
Allah Hafiz.
*scowl*
What priority! My priorities have changed!
And by the way, Im angry enough not to listen to WHO? Who on the wide world knows WHAT my problem is...
*flounces off*
Thanks for reading anyway...
It was a general comment. I feel it made you angry even more.
I am sorry for any confusion and offense I may have inadvertently caused.
"Im angry enough not to listen to WHO?"
ye World Health Organization to nahi :)
One should really avoid CAPS as it can create an illusion. :)
But the illusion would have to be conjured up ... because it makes no sense to have World Health Organization in this post (and that too, followed by a question mark!)
No sweat!
Thanks for reading
Salam,
I agree it was not a flawless 'joke'. It did not have the ability to withstand your 'critical analysis'. :)
Waisay, it seems you were defending 'CAPS' :)
Thanks for the "thanks culture" which is so uncommon in our country.
Take care,
Allah Hafiz
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