Assalamualaikum!
The day was kind of hectic, but had a nice ending...which is still going!! I have a Laptop now !! :D:D
It isn't mine (I need a job, seriously). But the one to whom this laptop belongs to...listened to the following plea of mine with great amusement :
I said: Listen....look here, a laptop isn't that great to put on a lap anyway. The eyes get tired after a while...not to mention the finger pointer can get quite annoying.. so why don't you .....
My blatant speech was cut off and she replied "It's yours. Don't worry! But I need it for presentations!"
Good old Chotpo ! Love you
Khair.. we had our final year project presentation today :) I have to admit, ours was a little technical for the audience. But we did try our best and HT did a fine job!
We missed employees canteen käy "daal chawal" though :D
Hmm what else has been going on ..
Oh yeah... I received the shocking news of the sudden death of one of my class fellows in A'Level "Áhmed Mahrooz" :(:( He didn't wake up in the afternoon day before yesterday.
We see death around us all the time. We read about it in the papers. We KNOW it's going to happen to us...and our near and dear ones.
Yet we are so unprepared for it. Not only for ourselves (we'll come to that later)...but also for our collegues/friends/family members. My shock was mainly due to these numb thoughts
1. He was MY AGE
2. He had just graduated..
3. He was soo young
4. He had his whole life ahead of him
What reasons....! :(
We tried to go to his place as well. Tried our best. But got so lost in the Khayabaans that after six hours behind the wheels, I was ready to drop dead...*wince*. Bad pun!
Khair. Coming to ourselves.. have we imagined ourselves dead..ever?
Can I even come to terms with the fact that I might take my last breath before this blog entry is published?
And what does coming to terms with our death mean anyway? In my opinion, it simply means that you are aware...every single second of your life...that your life can end ANYTIME.
Now this doesn't at all mean that you sit with a gloomy face throughout your life.. no way. It simply means that all the things we indulge in (wrong things) .. thinking : dil chah raha hay...bus thori dair kay liay.....bus aik din kee baat hay (just for a few minutes....just for a few days), can be our LAST ACTS.
This made me so scared yesterday...I kept thinking of all the wrong I have done in my 22 years.. all the hurt I have caused people, all the times I have been most irritating and annoying....all the times I have listened to music and enjoyed myself thoroughly...all the times I have sat and watched the most frivolous of all movies ...(Confessions of a Teenage Drama Queen!!!)....and all the times I have been rude to my parents..
And felt desperately sorry!
So I'm taking this opportunity to offer my apologies to everybody associated with me in any way (academically, personally).. um, for every idiotic thing I have done to you.
And my apologies to God...with the sincere hope that He will Forgive me and give me a nice palace in Jannah... (which has its own personal roller coaster and jet) Ameen
Allah Hafiz
3 comments:
Thank you for that ... exceptionally moving comment.
It doesn't really seem like one though, you should have a blog entry like this.
I can understand the loss one feels when somebody really close (friends especially) passes away. But what strikes me most, is again, that they were just the SAME AGE as us.. and it could EASILY have been US, rather than THEM.
May Allah Give us Taufeeq to remember our deaths and not pass this life, especially our younger years, in frivolity and useless things.
May Allah Bless you too..
Jazak Allah again
Well, I have thought about it now. I think I will request you to delete that comment or hide it, if possible, from general visitors.
It might be that people who know me stray to this post like I did and note things which I don't know why I don't want them to note.
Thanks in anticipation!
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